Monday,time clocked in:2.39pm!Well everything has to start afresh,Amidst my new agenda, i decided to just pen this in, so as to cool myself down.Ive just attended a meeting in which Ive got no head or tail as in to what was happening around…I just sat there potraying a "pretty face".The cool serenity which was shown on the outter was a  total contradiction of mayhem which was going in through in my brain….a complete mess of brain cells going haywire.Pretending is one thing, but going on forever like that may propose a threath of emotional outburst! Trust me, been there before and  I dont wana go through that phase again.Anishar Anishar….why dont u just go and say Hi and make friend with your new collegues instead of just waiting for them to break the ice….Its never gona be that way…just swallow whatever "Lump" you have got there in your throath and say HI…Tough not to follow suit of Alley Macbeal characterization,but Instead of  blending in with reality (The meeting), I was pretending to be "someone" im not.I was trying hard to stay within the content of the meeting…but my wandering mind was in the mood for escapade…Could I use Monday’s blue as a lame excuse.Just before I entered this field, I told myself "Anishar you are gona work, earn and enjoy life to the max!trying to uphold all this can be pretty tough considering that all those "Scars" of the past are pretty haunting….But nevertheless am ALhamdullilah that am given this new leash of Life to embark on….(i SEE myself veering away from my main topic once again).Its june holiday…..the staff room looks deserted.Im left with loads of works.Wish me luck…do i hear you?