You smiled; you caught a sight of me, through the corner of your eyes, but you looked away as I came nearer
Your silent gesture made me comfy in the seat beside you. I was eager to start of my day with you by my side. You understood the words I wrote in the letters meant just for the both of us. It feels great because you let me have a peek in the secluded world you are in. I feel excited whenever you hold on to my hand because you need to be comforted. You made me happy whenever you performed the act just to please me. I felt so close to knowing that I was at the edge of my thoughts that I knew you better, when it happened.
It all happened because of one phone call that was when I saw a sight of you, a sight which seek sympathy. A sight which I was trying to bury within us .I was there to help you eschew this sight of yours, but you gave in to your emotion. You failed to fight against it and I failed to shield you against it. In agony you inflicted pain upon yourself.
I stood there helpless, wishing that I had some magical potion to simmer you down, but no….I could not, I had to accept defeat as I walked out of the classroom. Your tears brought upon the same emotion within me. I am looking forward to meeting you again today once more, because I am attached to you. I want you to be a part of my world, as you made me part of yours. Lets TRY again, again and again…till you become the hero that you always wish to be…..
*My student Darius with ASD was showing tantrum yesterday and I felt so helpless as I was not quite sure how I should handle the situation, but nevertheless, its gave me a chance to know him better…I would embark upon helping him out. Wish me the best of luck….Do I hear you?*
This entry of yours comes across to me as to how committed you are to this mission of yours. I wish you all the best. May Allah’s blessing and Our Beloved Prophet’s doa be with you all the time. It is not going to be easy. It will be trying and tenacious but do not give up. Be patient ok.
August 3, 2005 @ 5:46 amThanks alot for the wishes and advice:)Please doa for me too…
August 3, 2005 @ 6:14 pmGal, u must thank god for this situation. Are you crazy? u might ask me. But everything happens for a cause. Now u will try to work out a way to solve the prob if it happens again. Everyone has their moods. Maybe give a few minutes of ignorance might help. Remember we r sailing in the same boat. This is not advice just an idea. Every prob we teachers okie future teachers face is a stepping stone in our career. My journery to the Beautiful Gardern is to begin but first I no i must encounter the diffculties I will face to get into the Garden. Whether its a thorn or a Rose, we might not know. Our mission is to get into the Garden, and I no you and I can make it there. God bless
August 3, 2005 @ 8:38 pmI really like the way you mentioned that everything happens for a reason…Ive to totally agree on that fact and yes it did happen all for one cause, for me to learn from it, which i certainly did.Yeaps gal…thanks alot for the encouraging words…and yeap we are the future educators.:)
August 4, 2005 @ 6:47 am