Someone has been saying prayers on my behalf. God is there, HE listens to you, even when you are not calling out HIS name or even the time when you are oblivious of HIS presence…HE is there to guard you and your iman, because HE knows you best and puts you across a lot of tests, even when your drifting away to the temptation of shyaitan’s whisper, he recognizes your weakness and divert you back with your strengths. Why am I saying all this….My post for the day is not about preaching to non-believer but to truly thank MY LORD, for what HE has bestowed upon me, despite my ungratefulness towards him.

My practicum zipped up finally today with my lecturer coming in for a post practicum debriefs. I was to hand in the dreaded Practicum folder, which I had, jitters in passing it up, due to the fact that my lesson evaluations were kind of incomplete and there I was trying to burn the midnight oil…”smoking” away previous lesson evaluations, when I realize that I was really lost because my memory failed to track back previous evaluation from my lesson I was cursing Anishar, for falling into the trap of procrastination and as a negative reinforcement, what did I get? Failing memory and a demodulating body system which refused to stay awake beyond

2am

. I gave in finally as I resigned to the fact that I had misused my time and now I am reaping what I sow. it was around 2am, I was staring blankly at the screen and before I knew it, the wake of dawn buzzed into my ears as I got ready to face my fears. I was handing over my practicum file to my lecturer, with an imaginary wand in my hand to magical form new evaluation sheets in my Practicum folder…but sadly my imaginary wand remained as a part of my imagination… failing to emerge in realityJ I handed in the rest of my other folders which was needed as a part of the assignment. She was flipping through the folder with me by her side and there I was with my body physically in front of her, But with thoughts sprouted with wings, clashing into each others direction as they flewJ then there was a knock on the door, that was when my mentor came in to join in the meeting, followed by the cooperating teacher and finally my reporting officer. I felt like I was in a battle field, being outnumbered. I slowly excused myself out of the room, which is going to be filled with “talks behind the back of Anishar”. Time Check:

11.30am

…My mentor came over, with instruction that I need to go over and see my lecturer now. The butterflies which were evolving in my stomach have now developed into large size moth as I made my way into the meeting room. I decided to face the trumpet which is gona be blown right into my face.

My lecturer greeted me with a “HI”…I even scrutinized the HI, as a read between the line statement. She finally declared that she is pretty happy with my practicum folder. I was shocked; I asked her if she could repeat what she had just said. She consolidated the information of the meeting by saying that my mentor and reporting officer were pretty pleased with my performance and she even mentioned about the fact that she read through my observation file, and she liked the way I conveyed certain matters with the Teachers and how I managed to share important detail of the child.” Anishar but nevertheless you have to update your lesson evaluation, that would really help to regonise you weakness and strength”…But I read you daily observation form and I realized that you have wriiten them there, so I would take that as your final evaluation. ”Phew…..after all my day did turn out well and my members of BLACK made it even better by talking about the trip to KL which would take place late may…cant wait for it to take place!